Julie,
I can relate very well to what you're going through. While I will never eat flesh foods again, I will eat dairy and even eggs on occasion. Perhaps once a week in fact. Indeed, I am craving sunny side up fried eggs, and I will give into the craving. As for addiction, I just think many foods taste great. Many
vegan foods are equally addictive. For example, how many people can pass up potato chips?!
I have been vegetarian for 36 years and I still find the aroma of grilling flesh mouth watering.
You have to find your own way vis a vis
being vegan. And don't beat yourself up. If it makes you feel better both physically and mentally, try to eat vegan fare the majority of the time.
At any rate, it isn't up to any of us to stand in judgment of your ' fall off the wagon'. Many folks can be vegan purists easily enough. But many of us cannot.
Oh, and if you decide to jettison a
vegan diet, it's your call. I would never tell anyone they should or should not eat flesh or dairy/ eggs. It isn't my place to do so. Eating flesh, dairy and eggs doesn't make you a horrible person. I fully believe in the dictum 'each to their own'.